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Days like today are the reason I’m sure I’ve made the right decision to pursue this author business.
Writing can be hard. It can be down right torturous at times. But when you find the right story, the right characters, and everything is flowing so smoothly, to the point where it feels like it’s already written and you just have to transfer it to the keyboard. . . it’s euphoric.
I’ve already written nearly 4K words today (coming to a total of over 9K in the past three days) and still, I just don’t want to stop. Luckily, I’m in the middle of a 4-day weekend for the holiday, but I’m already dreading going back to work and losing all that precious time. I can’t wait for this month to be over, and for days like today to be my whole life.
You may recall, I set myself a goal to write just 500 words a day and finish Rafe’s and Sinnia’s story before touching anything else. You may also recall, from my last post, that I’d written myself into something of a deep, dark hole I wasn’t sure how to get out of.
Spoiler alert! I did not get out of it.
I tried. I brainstormed until I was blue in the face, and then I made Bunny listen to my woes until he tried to fix it by pitching me a completely different story idea. A good one too, that I wrote down to come back to later, maybe. But, unfortunately, it didn’t offer any insights into how to fix my current dilemma.
All of this was made worse by the looming kick-off of Camp NaNoWriMo, which I decided to participate in for the first time ever this month. Basically, you set a word count goal for the month, join a Cabin if you are so inclined (I was), and then write. I was planning to do 20K words on Sinnia and Rafe. I put up my little synopsis and chose and excerpt, and was ready to go.
Except, on June 30th, I hadn’t written a word in days and was dreading the idea of having to go back to that project when I still didn’t have a workable solution. I was thinking I’d just have to keep going and hope I could somehow fix it all in the editing phase, even when I knew that would essentially mean rewriting everything. And my long weekend was about to start, and I wanted to enjoy it. I wanted to write something fun! I wanted to do something awesome for my first Camp.
I ended up staring at a little half-done outline I’d sketched out several months ago. One that looked so much more fun than my current disaster of a project. Then one of my cabin mates said something that was exactly what I wanted and needed to hear, at the exact right time.
Write what you can’t resist.
Well, okay then! Decision made, I woke up on the 1st more excited about writing than I’d been in two weeks. And also, very well rested thanks to the sleeping in, which didn’t hurt. I spent the afternoon finishing up character sheets and fleshing out the outline a bit more. It’s a super simple, straight forward, contemporary m/m romance. The first in a four-part series, actually. I’m hoping. There are no fantasy mechanics that need to be developed from scratch, no complicated magic rules to keep in mind. It’s just a fluffy little romance with characters I could already hear the unique voices of in my head, in a setting I know better than almost any other I could pick: Austin.
A lot of my stories end up being based in Austin, actually. A Little Bit Broken takes place there, too. I grew up just outside the city, then actually lived in the city for three years while in school. And you know what they say. Write what you know!
I know Austin. And I know these characters. And for three days now, I’ve gone to bed practically buzzing with excitement. Not just for what I planned to write the next day, but for what I’ve already written. It’s not perfect, of course. But it’s better! I can see where I’m improving. And while I can also see where I still need to keep practicing, I feel like a publishable book is not such an insurmountable peak anymore.
Most importantly, it’s fun!
I hope I’ll go back to fix Rafe and Sinnia eventually. Sometimes, space is what you need to get clarity for a problem. I think maybe I might have bit off a little more than I can chew with that project. Writing fantasy incorporates a lot more variables than contemporary, and considering I’m still working on the basic principals of story telling, I might need to develop a little more skill before tackling that particular project.
For now, I’m going to bask in my euphoric writing buzz and enjoy the hell out of my fluffy little romance. And I’m going to try to remember this feeling when, inevitably, it gets hard again and I start questioning my life choices.
Happy Fourth of July!